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I don't know.
I don't know.
I really don't know.
I haven't the foggiest idea.
Today is my birthday. I sit here sick with the flu. Kind of a nice birthday really. My two main objectives to accomplish today 1) finish The Mark of the Lion trilogy and 2) blog. Not a bad birthday when you view it like that, sick or not.
I have been wanting to post for some time on the thought of "I Don't Know." I've been using these words more and more lately....and for the better.
I don't use them because I can't make up my mind. I don't use them because I hide behind them in insecurities. I don't use them because I haven't thought the question through or because I don't have an opinion.
So why have they become such a large part of my vocabulary lately?
Because as I grow in my Christian walk and look to Christ and the Word of God for direction in my life, I learn again and again just how much I don't know. (Isn't there a blog out there called this? LOL!)
This is so liberating to me on many levels. Is it being the first-born, having a type A personality, or just the sin of pride that has made me think for the better part of 34 years that I had to have a concrete answer for most everything? I really don't know. (grin)Maybe a combination of them all.
My eyes have been open to the fact that while I don't know everything, I know the ONE who does. I rest in that. Not everything is black and white and all tied up neatly in a cute little box. Life is messy and complex. There are entire dimensions to time and space that I can't even see or perceive. What a relief to realize that there are lots of things that I simply CAN'T know, and that all the research and reasoning in the world will fall short of knowing.
I am human. I am limited. God is God. He is truth. I am created. He is creator. He is everywhere and knows everything. I can't even see behind me. (I'm a mom but I really don't have eyes in the back of my head as some claim.) And these thoughts liberate me!!!
I don't know!!!!! But I KNOW the ONE who does KNOW!
I don't know.
I really don't know.
I haven't the foggiest idea.
Today is my birthday. I sit here sick with the flu. Kind of a nice birthday really. My two main objectives to accomplish today 1) finish The Mark of the Lion trilogy and 2) blog. Not a bad birthday when you view it like that, sick or not.
I have been wanting to post for some time on the thought of "I Don't Know." I've been using these words more and more lately....and for the better.
I don't use them because I can't make up my mind. I don't use them because I hide behind them in insecurities. I don't use them because I haven't thought the question through or because I don't have an opinion.
So why have they become such a large part of my vocabulary lately?
Because as I grow in my Christian walk and look to Christ and the Word of God for direction in my life, I learn again and again just how much I don't know. (Isn't there a blog out there called this? LOL!)
This is so liberating to me on many levels. Is it being the first-born, having a type A personality, or just the sin of pride that has made me think for the better part of 34 years that I had to have a concrete answer for most everything? I really don't know. (grin)
My eyes have been open to the fact that while I don't know everything, I know the ONE who does. I rest in that. Not everything is black and white and all tied up neatly in a cute little box. Life is messy and complex. There are entire dimensions to time and space that I can't even see or perceive. What a relief to realize that there are lots of things that I simply CAN'T know, and that all the research and reasoning in the world will fall short of knowing.
I am human. I am limited. God is God. He is truth. I am created. He is creator. He is everywhere and knows everything. I can't even see behind me. (I'm a mom but I really don't have eyes in the back of my head as some claim.) And these thoughts liberate me!!!
I don't know!!!!! But I KNOW the ONE who does KNOW!
good thoughts!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you
I was going to sing to you this morning but since you were already feeling under the weather.... I did not want to make you feel worse!
Happy birthday! Thanks for continually sharing yourself and the things that you're learning. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for that :)
ReplyDeleteMakes ya wonder what you might learn once you don't think you have to know it all, hmmm? I think that can be such a blinder. . . Makes me think of Deuteronomy 29:29. Yet there IS absolute Truth--there are things we can know and indeed, have the responsibility of searching out. Thinking aloud here, I'd say it's (once again!) a matter of balance.
ReplyDeleteGod alone turns pride into humility, hmmm? :)
Shonya,
ReplyDeleteWhile I know there is ABSOLUTE truth, for God is such, I know this is a tight rope walk, especially in today's culture. The world wants nothing more than to switch absolutism 'God' for relativism, 'whatever is right for you.
Very dangerous and we are beginning to see the devastation of this trend in today's culture with our abortion and gay rights propaganda.
However, where my thoughts where headed in this post is more towards the sadness of denominational fragmentation of views on what is absolute. We've tried to make the grayer areas the main picture. We stand on our absolute 'rightness' and possibly compromise our 'righteousness.'
I find this so frustrating within the church. Such disunity. And it is so so saddening.
mmmmm, THAT! "denominational fragmentation of views on what is absolute" Yeah, I don't know.
ReplyDeletechuckle I'm too tired to think about that right now.
But where is Atretes at this moment?! LOL